Keseren's Game blog

(not drama-related, as far as I know)

RANTING TIME. ARE YOU READY FOR THIS?

So for my English class I was assigned a homework project where I am supposed to "confess" something (it's linked to "Hamlet" by Shakespeare). It can range from something little, such as feeling bad about a certain event, to something big, like cheating on your boyfriend.

What does this have to do with Ragnarok Online? Well, I shall tell you!

When I was contemplating on this project, there was one "confession" that came to mind before anything else. (Procrastination was pretty high up there too, but I thought this one was more drastic and would actually need work on my part.)

And so, here I do with my confession.

I hope Josh isn't reading this and/or not knowing what I'm referring to. I have yet to "confess." And I'm not exactly talking to Josh right now, per se. I just don't talk much in Vent. (Which could also be part of another confession that I was contemplating on.)

All right.

When Josh invited me to Eternity, I was saying that I was super excited joining a new server. (And yeah, I was super excited, honestly.) But upon coming to Eternity--

WHY DOST THIS NEED TO EXTRACT MY INTELLIGENCE AND SOUL TO SPEAK

--I realized that it was a complete new and extraordinary experience. Like I stated before (way long time ago), Eternity was currently the closest to an official server that I am playing. (Probably the closest was Anima which had super low rates and I don't even remember travelling out of the main city and to a close city (Pronter and Payon, respectively). So I'm not even sure if they had a Warp NPC.)

But coming from a server that was completely customized and easy to access everything (Essence), it was sort of a hard change but I was determined to make the change.

And it's not Josh's or Jeff's fault on this, but I feel like my life on Eternity is a bit... lifeless? (PARADOX HAVING A LIFE AND NOT AT THE SAME TIME?)

It my fault mainly because I'm mainly introverted unless I know someone very well, then I actually make crude jokes, etc. But usually I'm on a "let's get shit done" sort of mood and when people start joking around/having fun, I am placed in a very awkward position. (And those who have been on Vent with me can really see this happening.) There are few times where I am actually participating in a conversation in Vent (Skype is easier mainly because it's one-on-one and I don't feel like I'm interrupting anyone) and that is: 1) when someone is directly addressing me, 2) if someone asks a question that I know, 3) if I have a question. Otherwise, I'm quiet.

I mean, it's not like I don't want to talk, I do, but, as Tak has said about me: I would start to talk, and then someone would interrupt, and then I would never speak again in fear that I would interrupt them. Even if they interrupted me.

I'm very strange.

BUT THIS ISN'T ABOUT MY INTROVERTEDNESS OVER VENT.

This is about me and Eternity. Me vs. RO.

I log onto Eternity and I realize that there really isn't anything for me to do. Sure, there are quests, but those get so boring when all you talk to are programmed NPCs who always say the same thing over and over again.

To be honest, Eternity is reflecting my life that I had on Final Fantasy XI, and that wasn't fun at all.

Clarification: I had joined Final Fantasy XI to assist my sister and share a game with her. However, as she outleveled me, being way older than I am and therefore graduating college earlier than I, she ended up leaving me to level on my own. There would be times that she would come back to help me, but it seemed like she was always engrossed in some new event when I did log onto FFXI. And that game isn't solo-able at all! You pratically need a party to survive in that game. And, seeing how I was so alone (and introverted, on top of that!), I was completely disinterested in the game.

Don't get me wrong, Eternity is a great server. It's as close to the real iRO as can be, but having the only two people end up doing something on their own (and often an event/quest that I cannot participate/help in) I feel pretty much left out. They are pros, as far as I know, when it comes to ROing, and when I compare myself to them, how could I ever "man up" to their standards? I hardly know how to play any of the classes that are out there (I'm pretty much programmed to play priest for my entire RO career) and getting introduced to a new class ends up with questions that noobs would ask, such as:

I don't know a skill build, can you help me?

Where should I level?

Which quests give out good exp?

I don't understand X skill.

And so on, so on.

On Essence I have already gotten over the few obstacles that I ran into. Leveling was straight-forwards, skills/stats are resettable so I didn't worry if I accidentally messed them up, and skills were explained to me before I could even ask questions. (And I played a full-support priest, so skills were pretty straight-forwards, as well.)

But I guess I am making up excuses on why I should be allowed leave of Eternity.

No, Josh, do not let me leave Eternity! I need to learn to struggle and ask questions.

So this is my confession: "Josh, I feel very left out when I do log into Eternity."

My solution: "I will participate more into conversations when you and Jeff do talk!"

How effective will this be? Oh, I have no clue. At all.

Not to say that I'm good friends with Josh; we text and bug each other often. But it's Jeff. SKDNGWKNEFSD JEFF. He still intimidates me.

People bigger than me intimidate me. And I'm asian, therefore, a -lot- of people are bigger than me.

Wonderful.

But I'll keep on trying!

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Thanks for saying with my rant until the end. If you just scrolled down here and saw this message...

Well. You didn't miss much..? CONFESSIONS. ;P

Not much happened today in terms of gaming. I ended up getting an allergic reaction for a good part of the afternoon and so I took a break from doing anything (and instead just suffered for a while).

But upon returning to my computer, I decided that I would try to level in Eternity. Because. Well, I shouldn't be so heavily reliant on Josh and Jeff, as far as I'm concerned. So I asked Josh for a list of quests that I should be trying to accomplish for easy leveling exp and a stat build. Haven't gotten the stat build yet, but I'm guessing he's taking time to think of something that's balanced. ;)

I gained two or three levels while doing quests, but the lack of butterfly wings was really getting to me. Seriously, I would have to run across a town map, into a library on a floating island, and then realize I have to run all the way back so I could use the Warp NPC to another town for another NPC on the edge of another map.

So it honestly did not take me long to get tired of it all. (I would have bought some, but: 1) I didn't have Level 10 Discount, and 2) I didn't want to log onto Josh/Jeff's characters because I feel like I'm sabotaging/infiltrating/being overall sneaky when I log onto their characters.)

And so, I leveled a bit on my Soul Linker, logged off, and then logged onto Essence.

Ends up there's a limited edition event hat celebrating St. Patrick's day, so I decided to give it a shot. Needed 30 4-leaf clovers, 20 Rainbow Carrots, 10 Gold, and 1 Battered Pot. I went into my Guild Storage that Okale and I have shared, and amazingly had enough clovers and gold. I got a pretty good head start on the rainbow carrots (I would have more but I went on a lunatic catching spree a couple months back) and the battered pot dropped at a pretty easy rate on Essence.

So I went to prt_maze01, walked in a bunch of warps until I got to Martins, killed some (damn their hide skill) until I got a battered pot, then took my leave.

Then I found the lunatic map and am currently farming 11 more rainbow carrots. After this I should be done.

And then I'll log off. Well, depends if I can get to 20 before 10:45-ish. I need to wake up early for WoE tomorrow morning.

I have massive sleep debt; I'll be needing more sleep than usual to be able to wake up in the morning. Ugh.

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I'd like to thank whomever was the one who read my posts and added "Ragnarok Online" to the drop-down menu. Many, many thanks! <3 I will be frequently using that option!

Ugh, homework's flooded me. My friend said that I should bother him every time I want to level so he can help me. I think both of us are just trying to go around the whole grinding-to-next-level process. Which I don't mind at all. But when's the next time I'll actually be able to play? FFFFFF

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[3/14/2010 11:18:33 PM] Self: "Campaign started: Laurell quickly grabbed her stave before rushing outside, her mithran tail flickering with hesitation as she saw the first of the blood splash onto the ground. The fairies were floating, as usual, as she caught up to her sister, Kveldulfr. "Kvel, Kvel! I'm here, finally!"

"You fat lard-cat, what took you forever? We can't hold them back without a white mage! Hurry, buff the warriors and paladins!" Her sister huffed, holding her bloodied up war axe in her hand.

Laurell cringed at her reprimand, then flinched into action. "Y-yes! The monsters won't last that long, Kvel! Just you wait!"

So, my friend Josh and I were talking about how to write a narrative story and both of us were wondering different ways of approaching a specific plot line. We came up with two different ways: directly stating and implied meaning. Direct is like a character goes on a huge monologue describing how future events will be happening. Implied is like the above where the reader slowly gains insight on what is going on around the protagonist.

And while I was trying to explain each type, I wrote out that small except about my character participating in Campaign on Final Fantasy XI. Even though I really haven't. But I've watched my sister play it so I know how it goes. Sort of. My lack of confidence in knowledge of Campaign has led me to not fully write about it.

Enjoy!

So I finally moved all of my posts (which weren't a lot but I ended up messing up some posts in the end) and I would like the administrators of Gamerblogz to please add Ragnarok Online to their game listings. :| It would help me immensely.

Anyhow, I'm going to try to keep up my gaming descriptions to this blog since my other two journals are currently preoccupied with other matters. ;) Plus this is specifically supposed to be aimed at gaming..?

I haven't been doing a lot of gaming lately. Class has been eating me up alive.

Though I leveled my taekwon to soul linker (though in all actuality Josh and Jeff helped me with the whole thing). It consisted of me dying about three times by plants outside of Ice Dungeon and getting some lucky teleports.

Since extended classes like soul linkers don't transcend, I find this is going to be way easier to level than my wizard. Which I'm not complaining, either. Soul linkers are pretty amazing to begin with. But I still won't mind at least transcending my wizard.. *Q*

Josh has also been doing The Sign quest. Which is highly frustrating, I hear. (I've only doing it part way and it was on Essence.) I ended up helping him with the dancing portion of the quest which was pretty amazing. :D

But he just finished today, and congrats to him!

When I do finish my classwork/homework, I should be starting on some easy quests in Rachel to boost up my exp. So I'll be doing that in the meantime and I'll update when something worth mentioning appears.

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