Just an update. Not like anyone really thinks about it though. But just noting.
So I haven't played Ragnarok Online (which is the only MMO that I've been playing as of late) seriously for a week or so.
And I just sometimes feel like my presence isn't really needed. After all, I play a class that is easily replaceable in any game (priest). Knowing that I really don't matter in a guild that I really thought I felt close to has put me into a very strange position.
1) To leave the guild officially and mayhaps leave Essence, which I consider as my main server. This would leave me to take Eternity seriously and/or use it as a main server.
2) To stay in the guild and just continue every-day business.
3) To slowly remove myself from the guild until I make a note that I am leaving.
And most likely I'll choose option 2. I don't really like making drastic changes where I have to completely remove myself from a server that I have been a part of for a good year (and then some).
And maybe I'm just imagining everything. Maybe everyone really does care that I have nearly disappeared from the game.
But who am I kidding? I haven't been much of a RO frequent these last couple of weeks.
...Fine, these last couple of months.
I can't really blame anyone for slowly removing me from the picture. But I sort of thought that I was a pretty good priest and would be missed.
But I only log on one day a week (sometimes two, but that was really depending on my mood).
And even if I were missed, then I would have been worried that my guild was treating me like a tool.
Sigh, I will always find something wrong with my RO life.
Part of me says that I should quit. But I would end up having to anyway due to school/education later on. I'm trying to get the best out of it right now.
Not really sure what to think. I suppose I'll write about this later.
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